My Life

Thu, 06 Mar 2008 02:19:24 GMT

If you leave, don't leave now
Please don't take my heart away
Promise me just one more night
Then we'll go our separate ways
With hours left time on our sides
Now it's fading fast
Every second every moment
We've got to--we've gotta make it last

I touch you once I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd still be friends someday

If you leave I won't cry
I won't waste one single day
But if you leave don't look back
I'll be running the other way
Seven years went under the bridge
Like time was standing still
Heaven knows what happens now
You've got to--you've gotta say you will

I touch you once I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd meet again

I touch you once I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd still be friends

I touch you once I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd meet again someday

If you leave
Oh if you leave
Oh if you leave
Don't look back
Don't look back

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 02:38:17 GMT

"So Much"

How does it feel to know you're everything I need
The butterflies in my stomach
They could bring me to my knees
How does it feel to know you're everything I want
I've got a hard time saying this
So I'll sing it in a song

Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one

How does it feel
How does it feel when we get locked into a stare?
Please don't come looking for me
When I get lost in the mess of your hair
How do you feel when everything you've known
Gets thrown aside
Never fear, my dear, 'cause we have nothing left to hide

Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt

Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I'm right next to you
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I won't let you down

Well, I'm ready
Well, I'm ready
I am ready
To run away with you
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
To run away with me

Pack your things we can leave today
Pack your things we can leave today
Say our goodbyes and get on the train
Say goodbye
Just you and I in the sweet unknown
We can just call each other our home

If I had to choose a way to die
It'd be with you
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your face
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your cherub face

How does it feel?

Mon, 18 Feb 2008 03:42:48 GMT

i like you.
i like you alot.
please dont go to germany.

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 19:02:18 GMT

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year
But
I'll be there for you (when the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you (like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you (because you're there for me too)

Tue, 15 Jan 2008 03:33:55 GMT

Every time you messed with my head
All the things you did and you said
See my scars spell out your name and, you’re paralyzing me

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 19:25:35 GMT

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii like you alot

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 05:43:43 GMT

im gunna fail school

Tue, 27 Nov 2007 19:10:08 GMT

im so tired.
and i feel so shitty.
i miss you.
please stop being sick.

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 16:00:39 GMT

I really hope you are real.
Please tell me something good will come of this.

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 11:58:08 GMT

Where is the jam?

Jam is in the jarrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

hahahahaha. Maybe this place isnt so bad.

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 02:48:08 GMT

I hate school.
I hate Ottawa.
I hate my classes.
i hate not living in res.
I hate how i spent all my money.

I love the hottie.

Sat, 18 Aug 2007 01:53:54 GMT

ywerugreygvryuye geruyghyetrwtgr

I got new bed sheets.
Im moving into my room tommorow.
but only for the day.
then party times.
then shopping.
then monday pool party!1111one

Wed, 08 Aug 2007 00:31:58 GMT

Things and thoughts in my life right now:

I have three days of work left.
I'm in love with everyone in the world.
There are so many hotties at work.
I have a date with one on Friday.
Hes 24.
HA.
HA.
Ha.
Pay day Friday... plus 2 weeks bonus.
Ikea soon?
I need nice cups..better with Zeta's.
I move out soon.
Im stoked.. yet bummed.
i really just like moving.
I miss my best friend.
I miss my twin best friend.
and i know steph is gunna post a comment saying this anyways yes i miss you too steph.

I miss my ex boyfriend.
UGH ew.. why did that just get typed.

I wish i meant one of the less gay ones.. but i dont..
LAME.

I'm over it.
I need a new laptop.
Hopefully ill get one next week.
I need to get going on the slide show.
And I need to hangout with my two oldest friends whom i actually miss so much, probably more then anyone, and havent seen hardly all summer.. completely my fault.
At least i get to live with one soon.
kinda.

WELP that is all.

Oh and Regardez le pinnappley!

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 21:39:39 GMT

i drove all over hells half acre today.
but it was worth it.
i had a good day with nikki.
we went to stingers.

I got pierced.
im so bamf.

BAHAHAHHAHAH
just kidding...

but seriously.
im hot.

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 23:55:34 GMT

This is why i love work.

Cam: " yeah and she was just like fucking the guy for like 50 minutes"
Me: "Shit thats a long ass time."
Dan: " yeah thats how I role.................If you wanna cuddle for 49 minutes."

BAHAHHAHAH
oh lord.

in other breaking news.
I live in Markham again.
I have full service so text and call away

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 02:38:00 GMT

Off the top of my head, I can think of 5 people who I hold so dear to me, and who are so important in my life that I know I will make the effort to remain close with throughout the years to come.

Those people will know who they are. But I will say that im so lucky to have such an amazing guy friend like you whom I know I can call to talk aboout anything at anytime.
You rule Cam Wilson.

And i know you are reading this claire hinkley and wondering if yoou are one f thse people.
and yes you are you sillycupcakeface:)<3

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 00:34:57 GMT

Its happening.
The thing where im miserable all the time.
And I feel like everything you say just tkaes me furhter from you.
I feel we are drifting.
And I'm beginning to take things to personally and too seriously.
Which nly makes me sadder.

I miss you.
I saw you three days ago and i miss you.
Like I feel like im missing somethingin my life when your not around.

How pathetic.
This isn't good at all.

Tue, 03 Jul 2007 23:13:35 GMT

i miss you.
i saw you last night.
i still miss you.
i miss you in a way i couldn't even begin to describe.

I found a song that describes this.. kinda.. pretty much..

Oh why can't I be with you need?
A new improved version of me
But I'm nothing so good
no, I'm nothing
Just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence of love and of sorrow
I beg for just one more tomorrow
where you hold me down, fold me in
deep, deep, deep in the heart of your sins

I break in two over you, oh
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don't see me, you don't

Here I'm pinned between darkness and light
Bleached and blinded by these nights
where I'm tossing and tortured 'til dawn
by you, visions of you then you're gone.
The shock bleeds the red from my face
when I hear someone's taken my place.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that I did was for you

I break in two over you, oh
I break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life
But you don't see me, you don't

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 22:58:09 GMT

im so glad i get to experience heartbreak twice in one year.
im so lucky.

Sun, 10 Jun 2007 20:33:04 GMT

WELL.
good times and bad times.

Bad times: I hit brians jeep. My back bumper is fucked.. so is his door....my debt is now almost 6 grand.

Good times: my daddy isnt mad.

Bad times: mother wont let me drive anywhere anymore..i might be fucked for school and work.

Good times: I hungout with him all yesterday.
Good times: Jake's bday bash was GREAT SUCCESS
Good times: We got so close
Good times: He doesnt regret it
Good times: its gunna happen more often
Good times: AMAZING

Good times: hes so sweet

Bad times: he doesnt want a girlfriend still
Good times: Not like it matters we act like we are dating anyways, and this is the icing on the cake...summer lovin.. i cant wait.

Thu, 31 May 2007 22:41:36 GMT

I fucking love Lady Sovereign more then anything in life.
I have never been so stoked on something more then i am/was about her concert.
it fucking ruled all.

And i love april, and couldn't have had more wicked times with the president himself.

In other news.
You have pink eye, how unfortunate, looks like yet another weekend withuot hangingout with you :(

katie and steph are both gay.
and i wish they would just swim in my pool.

Tue, 29 May 2007 01:48:39 GMT

I really cant catch a break.
this month has probably been the worst month of my life.

Accident.
Speeding Ticket.
Locked keys in truck.

Rejected.

Stressed for school.
Stressed for school some more.

Puked.
Made bad decisions.

like honestly...
whats next...

shitty

Thu, 24 May 2007 22:08:26 GMT

Well I had a lovely physical today.
Heres how it went down.

I have elevated levels of proteins in my urine, which could have just been from a high protein meal that i ate, but i havent eaten in 3 days. So now i have to have tons of blood work, and pee in a cup a bunch of times.

But basically heres whats probably wrong:

Glomerular Diseases:

Several different types of kidney disease are grouped together under this category, including autoimmune diseases, infection-related diseases, and sclerotic diseases. As the name indicates, glomerular diseases attack the tiny blood vessels (glomeruli) within the kidney. Protein, blood, or both in the urine are often the first signs of these diseases. They can slowly destroy kidney function.

People in the early stages of kidney disease usually do not feel sick at all.

If your kidney disease gets worse:
1. you may need to urinate more often or less often.
2. You may feel tired or itchy.
3. You may lose your appetite
4. or experience nausea
5. and vomiting.
6. Your hands or feet may swell or feel numb.
7. You may get drowsy or have trouble concentrating.
8. Your skin may darken.
9. You may have muscle cramps.

I have the following;
1. I have drank half a bottle of water today and peed 3 times.
3. I have no appetite, hence not eating for 3 days.
4. I have felt sick since monday.
6. My hands and feet have been randomly swelling for months now
7. All day I have been so drowsy, i almost got in a car accident because of it.
9. Sinc ethe beginning of the week i have had muscle pains all through my legs, for no reason, like the feeling after running a marathon.

Welp. Hopefully i dont die.
What a waste of life that would be.

Mon, 14 May 2007 00:06:35 GMT

i just cleaned my whole truck...
with glass cleaner..
a whole bottle of it...
and 2 rolls of paper towel.

it was not very environmentally friendly of me.

but i cleaned all the scratches off

..........mostly

Sat, 12 May 2007 18:26:02 GMT

i dont get it.
like.
i honestly dont get it.
whats wrong with me?

like.
seriously.
im not ugly. im not huge. im not dull. im not stupid. im not a waste of life. like.
fuck

what the fuck like.

WHAT THE FUCK